Friday, December 28, 2012

My Life :: Some Little Updates

“And I feel like I’m naked in front of the crowd ‘cause these words are my diary screaming out loud, and I know that you’ll use them however you want to….”
-Anna Nalick

            First I’ll say sorry for not blogging lately. Then, I’ll try to fix it by saying that I’ve been so busy with my fulltime job, and my side freelance writing jobs, and Christmas, and throwing hissy fits over cleaning, and everything else. But you probably don’t care because you’re either equally as busy or even more so. So, I’ll just say sorry and carry on about myself.
            As I mentioned in my previous post, it takes a certain bravery and courage to write about your life. Some people write in private journals for only their eyes, some people write through books and songs. Some people bottle it up and don’t write at all. I unashamedly write about my life right here, through words and poetry and pictures, for all of you to see. So I guess that doesn’t leave much room for embarrassment to harbor. I know there are readers out there who really do care, and for that, I just want to reach out and hug all of you, one by one.
            So here are the updates you’ve been asking for:
            I finally accomplished one of the more nerve-racking goals on my list of things do to before I’m 26 - I went to see the allergist. Just as I had suspected, I am still severely allergic to birch trees, and nuts, and everything that is cross contaminated with birch trees and ragweed, and then some. Learn about it here if you’re interested: It could save somebody’s life. At first, I was nervous to post this photo because it’s unpleasant and uncomfortable, but I want you to see just how allergic some people are (like me). I can’t believe a tiny needle prick consisting of simply the allergen proteins made me have this reaction. Right away, the doctor and nurse had to rush in some Benadryl and Zyrtec and keep me there on watch for almost an hour. Scary stuff. The mark furthest to the left of my back is birch trees, and the other ones on top are tree nuts. So if you don’t like me, please don’t secretly hide a nut in my food. I’d hate you forever.

Can you believe how allergic I am? This is nuts... get it?

           I have had a super crazy hormonal-flying off the handle-short fuse-don’t even come near me or I’m going to hit you- month. I really can’t figure out why. All I know is I have cried more times this past month than I have in a long time. However, I’m honestly and whole-heartedly trying to find reasons every day for smiles to win the war against my tears. I’ll let you know who wins.
            Really though, I feel horrible even bitching and complaining about anything that goes on in my own life. I am alive, healthy, and everyone I love is alive and healthy as well. My heart is crying for the families in Newtown, CT whose holiday season and whole life was completely turned upside down. I have been praying for everyone involved in the situation, and I hope God can hear my little voice and bring them some strength and comfort during this horrifying time.
             On a lighter note, my sister came home for the holidays on Saturday, and my aunt & uncle from PA came last Sunday. THESE ARE HUGE REASONS TO SMILE. Best Christmas present EVER. Stephanos spoiled me, as usual, as did my entire family. I feel so blessed, I literally couldn't ask for a better group of people to love. Here's to 2013 being the best year ever.

            So, there’s a little bit about my life. What has been going on with you? How was your holiday? Are you excited for 2013?